Everyone remembers my love story post of how true love does exist, and how happy and sure I was of the fact that I had myself had it at one point and had a second chance at having it again. Eyes filled with tears, stomach in knots, going from being happy one minute and my life where and how I wanted it to be....I now reply to that with post with stating a fact of my love story being just that....a story. Not real life or real love....at least on the other end. There is no way to understand some people no matter how hard you try. In fact it can drive you crazy trying to make sense of someone else's crazy but as with most unhappy situations and you are bombarded with "everything happens for a reason's, it will get better, better to find out now's, and can I do anything's" It's so much easier to be the one saying them to console someone who is truly heartbroken. By no means am I complaining, just the opposite, I am overwhelmed with the love and support I have from my family and friends, but there is simply just nothing anyone can do to make someone feel better in such a situation. I feel embarrassed for thinking and acting as though I had a right to speak of something that I clearly did not have. I can speak for myself knowing how I feel and felt and the pain I am in now confirms the level of trust and love I had put into something that only mattered to me. I am offically with the other 99% of people I know who have not experienced real true pure love. Who have been hurt over and over and become people who can not trust anyone and for good cause. I have always been a trusting person and trusted people until I had a reason not to. I see the good in people, and positive in every situation but there is only so much believing of that you can do, and so much getting everything but that back before one questions the way you think and feel. That being said clearly there is good reason for building walls and keeping them up. I can admit when I make a mistake and obviously I have gone about my beliefs and protecting myself from being hurt all wrong. Live and learn right? Feeling "love" from someone for any length of time does not make it worth the pain and hurt when it gets fucked up. The moral of my story here is that fairy tales and movies are made up and not real life, they don't exist so don't sit around waiting for them to happen. Don't let love blind you from what is true.